fuck you too!!

adica am nervi, si as zice asta la niste oameni de aici....
dar ... sa pastram o atitudine pozitiva, totusi....

how to make time pass by faster

you think of today, you delete it from the virtualcalendar, you think ot the next day, half already passed, so, the next full day will be in 2 days.
so 2 days less already.
and then you dont count the weekend, so 2 more days vanish in one minute. and then you count really quick the next week up to the weekend, and you cross the weekend off again. so...2 weeks have passed.

case study:
lets say today is wednesday. it's almost finished now. tomorrow is thursday, very close to friday, and then weekend, which doesnt count. and then it will be a quick monday tuesday wednesday thursday, and theeeeen... then friday comes and my countdown stops, and begins an hour countdown. and then reality happens and then...
well, after THE then, i start another countdown.
and after that, i'll enjoy a month without counting

oh, sweet moments of the aftercounting
: and then star!

but i still think talking can solve problems.

fapt divers

acum vreo 2 saptamani am vazut o mata shpanche.
si mi-a fost putin mila de ea, dar era atat de draguta, saracuta...

new home sweet home

well, for the moment it's just new dirty home, but after the painting, new drapes, clean floorings,clean everything, it's gonna be new colored home sweet home :)
i love the couch in the living room, soo confy and soft, just good for napping or for visitors.
and the location, quite city center, gives me reasons to be more proud of it.
i'll post pictures in a week or so, after teh renovation is complete.
yeey :D

for a new era!

questions

is there such thing as "best before date " for feelings too?
love and affection just expire?
when do you know for sure who you really are?
is thee an absolute truth? or absoute anything, for a matter of fact?
when we do good deeds, we do them cus we want to do good or just couse we know that if we do good,some day we might get something good in return?
what to do to never get BORED??????

peace

will come to me

in curand, sa speram, ca se anunta un razboi civil...




si draga broscuta, ai putea s amai dai cate un semn de viata din cand in cand, sa ma asigur ca nu ai fost imaginar...

plictis

au fost mai multe persoane care au fost cel putin socate de ultimul post. ca eu sunt mai finuta de atat. si daca nu sunt?
na, ca asta ar fi un paradox :))
nu cred ca finetea si inteligenta se masoara in niste randuri pe un blog, care, btw, e personal.

si aveam ieri o dilema in timp ce-mi mancam conserva de ton cu multa lamaie(care avea cel putin un miros ciudat). dc mananci lamaie stricata sa-ti taie greata, ar trebui sa ti se faca mai greata sau sa-ti treaca?
[stiu, inteligenta acestei intrebari ma depaseste si pe mine, dar na...:))]

neintelegere

sunt barbat
am o pula
DECI orice pizda imi apartine.

putin fals.

24

mda.
am facut 24 de ani acum cateva zile.si e la fel, poate doar gandul ca 25 se apropie mai repede si ca nu o s apot sa mai zic (fara sa mint) ca am 23 de ani. mi se pare ca 23 suna mai neutru si mai jucaus decat 24. chiar da!
ieri vorbeam cu un prieten de cincinale. eu imi fixasem unul de 3 ani anul trecut. inseamna ca mai am doar 2 ani si o sa expire. inca am sperante ca o sa se intample. mai am destul timp. si tot el mi-a mai zis multe ieri, o zi frumoasa si cu mici surprize. si cu fresh de portocale. sau poate n-ar trebui sa zic de asta.
mai departe.
azi am vazut bee movie. concluzia a fost ca nu conteaza cat de neinsemnata e treaba ta, dc o faci bine ajuti la indeplinirea unui lucru maret. eu am probleme inca sa fiu total de acord cu asta. adica sunt de acord, dar nu pentru mine. nu stiu daca o sa simt vreodata ca lucrez la capacitate maxima. si cu toate astea, am nevoie de motivatie pantru a o face. din pacate. motivatie care vine independent de vointa mea,ceea ce o face cu atat mai greu de gasit si pastrat.

deii m aintreba azi, "mie mi-e dor de D. de cine ti-e dor tie, draga Pog?:"
nu am avut raspuns. imi e dor de niste persoane si de niste timpuri, dar stiu ca este imposibil sa se intample ceva, asa ca am decis ca nici dor nu mai trebuie sa-mi fie.

si acum mi-e doar dor sa-mi fie dor.

concluzie?!?

am visat ca m-au respins unii la ceva la ce mi-as dori extraordinar de tare sa nu fiu respinsa. mailul a fost doar in vis din fericire...deii zice ca asta inseamna ca in realitate se va intampla exact invers...(sa speram ca ai dreptate!!)
si alt gen de concluzie...e ca hm...ceva ce nu stiu cum poate fi interpretat. sau daca trebuie sa interpretez eu ceva. probabil ca nu.

si acum un cantec care m-a obsedat o vreme. inca imi place mult.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SNbay9GckW8

emotii de inceputuri

sa fie un semn bun cand primesti un mail "mult asteptat" in vinerea mare? sa fie un semn bun?
sa sper la mai mult?
ei bine, eu tot sper.
si in continuare ASTEPT VESTI BUNE SI RASPUNSURI AFIRMATIVE!
si lately imi doresc o masina. dar daca-mi ies alte treburi, masina os avina de la sine...la un moment dat :))

deci, vesti bune, COME TO MAMMA!! :)))

nice cats have no fun!

garfield RULZ!!!


this post should be like un update on my life. i write it more for me, like a journal. heh, some things DO happen sometimes :P, contrary to some opinions...

so, in no order whatsoever:

i have started TANGO classes. just one week now, and i still try to figure out the correct "walking" style. i think i have too many legs...but i'll try harder, more, and i'll do it. it's the same that happened with salsa. and in the end (3 months later :P)i could dance and recognize the signals, do some spins. so there is hope!!

i took some other classes, on quality management, kinda boring, but interesting class to take if you work in an office. well, it is intersting to know it, cus it's easier to better understand the things that happen around you. and besides, i'll be trained as a quality officer , haha, for whatever that means. i shall see. but, anyways, this quality boring papers and procedures are seen in everything. and even if most of the people in the office think you're just playing x and 0 (as one of my collegue said abt her boss's opinion), it is so not true. the standards and quality of your products are inspired and follow the quality procedures, and it is them that keep you in bussines, whatever bussines you are doing. people tend to forget that. and besides the fact that the classes were held in a -2 level room, with no windows, fresh air or enough oxygen...i am very pleased i took it. aaa, and my final grade is 9.40. :)))

i am very very tired these past 2 weeks, or, better said, my legs are very tired. i was even thinking about going to a massage. something, anything, cus it pisses me off. i can't walk too much now, and now tango, and spring..it is so unfair!! plus, it's quite medical what happens. so i should act on that. that brings me to one principal in quality: plan - do - check - act! it's good to use in private matters too. so i should act..lioton gel, here i come!!! :)) ( am i growing old?:-s)

deii moved in with me for a month now, i guess. and since she's more relaxed, it's just for the best. we know eachother and know most of the time when to shut up or what to say.
and the past days she keeps dreaming about me and d.
lastnite i was dreaming about her too, and around 3 am i went to the toilet to pee, and when i came back ( we're sharing my big bed)she woke up, thinking it was already 7.
so, she wakes up, sayz she was dreaming abut me, i tell her i was dreaming about her too, just before i woke up. the a quite second, then we both say "ugh, that's boring" and turn around and go sleep. kinda pissed, both. we share the bed, and not even when we sleep we can't run away. :)))
but the reaction at 3 am was fun!! boring...hehe, we laughed about it in the morning.

and today, i went to the park, "parcul circului", one of the most occidental and beautiful parks in bucharest. and i ate a sandwich and i enjoyed the green grass smell. really, if you have a park around you and the cut the grass, go and smell it. it will surely bring you some memories of your pure childhood life. it surelly brought to me.

and listen to GOTAN PROJECT! or some other tango. i m a newbie in tango, but you don't need to learn themoves, you have to feel it and have the right attitude! my personal belief is that attitude is always more important that what you know how to do.

so...don't be a nice cat and turn off your damn computer and go smell the grass!!!
i'll just do it now! ;)

but i feel high!!

but i feel good!!



yees!!!

for the first time in quite few time, i feel strong, high, happy, able to do whatever i want. and it feels great!
i don't know what happened, but i start to have some more confidence in me, and believe that if some things don't happen, they just needn't to happen.
and i cut my hair and everybody told me i look gorgeous ( i like this word so much!:)))
and i m just happy, haha, i think i used thisword too much.:P

ok, that s it. i need to get out.

il y a une eternite, il y a un siecle, il y a un an...

:)

(can't wait for the park)

pprrrfffff.....

i ate soo much today, but at least i'm proud it was eco-friendly, if food can be that..mozarella, tomatos, and some other herbs from a mega image bag. its name was cosmopolit salad. funky, huh? aaa, btw, i'm reading "funky business" and they're pretty funky. and i'm listening to classical music. loud. i start to really like it.

in fact, the ideea of this is a story that keeps ringing in my head.

it was the second summer in america, at the club, and as usuall, me and the girls wouldn't sleep. it was 4 am or later, don't remember exactly. and we were chatting on our bikes, outside the dorms. and something GREAT happens. great for us, bored to death... a mexican had stubbed his wife, or just caressed her with his knife, or smth like this, but it certainly involved a knife a and some blood. and we were soooooo curious to know the details :))
our "link from the inside" officer waller, (graduate of special ed, if we are to believe alison) wouldn't tell us anything. we were perfect strangers, even if we were waiting there like we weren't supposed to sleep and eventually work in about 5 hours. no wonder we were always sleepy and tired at work. (muhahaha)
so, we were standing there and we saw the american police in action. they were searching in all dorms rooms, asking around, asking manuel abt his life, they didn't even bother to ask us anything. and then there is this white car coming. it was the "forensic detectives" car. wow!! it was white, the 2 men had big metal diplomats and a bad look in their eyes. and they came to us and ask us what we knew. they then started to ask questions about the golf course, some names and persons. adaina and alison pointed me out.

- SHE knows!

hmm...i was proud i KNEW (or see them think that), but i was scared to hell . they scared me, really.
and they told me to come with them to show them the winter something...(i forgat the name, it was a part of the golf course, situated at the end of it)and i said ok, and pointed them the place, but they nooo, hup in the car! i got even more scared
me, in the car? with him? and in the car i tried to have a conversation and i asked them if the color of the car means something, like truth, or victory, cus it was plain withe, despite the police cars that are sooooo colorful.
and he replied with complete honesty:

- no, it's just cheaper.

awkard silence. not the typical "american police" answer one would expect. but he did answer that. and he told me to relax, cus he's the good guy in there. riiight...:))
and the we got off the car and we started loking for the knife in the grass. it was sooo interesting for me!! helping the police to look for a blooded knife!!! yeey!!
but we didn't find anything.
well, the whole thing turned out to be a storm in a glass of water. buuuut, there was a nice black cop, who would just stay with us and tell us funny stories. no really, he was big time fun! and we were laughing so hard, and he probably was feeling so damn good :))) he even gave us a phone no and invited us to the club, but he never answered that phone or never invited us...his loss, of course!! :P

and this is just a very very small part of our summer working vacation in america. god, we didn t sleep or work too much, but we had some serious fun and adventures.

car?!?
(usually, it was a taxi)

pe locuri, fiti gata,

tasteaza!!

cum inca nu stiu care e recompensa sau pedeapsa pt asta, adica pt scris sau nescris, ma apuc si eu constiincios de indeplinit.
dupa toate regulile contractului nesemnat, si acesta s-ar putea incadra in "scris". si uite asa m-am achitat de datorie.
dar.
daaar.
cum dusul e datator de inspiratie am sa scriu rezultatul proaspat.
dansam in cada (in limita furtunului) si cantam (destul de in gand) si ma gandeam ca nu exista nici un motiv pentru care sa nu fii fericit. really. eu eram. si ma gandeam la drepturile omului, la liberul arbitru si alte chetii filozofice. incercam sa vizualizez si coralii si pestisorii colorati. dar parca mai mult ma imbia o pajiste verde verde cu flori de camp. e tot liniste, da altfel de liniste. o linite in care nu exista sansa sa ma inec, din lipsa de cunotinte de inot. (:D)
si cum ma uitam eu pe sus, in parte dupa fluturasii de pe campia mea, in parte la ventilatorul enervant de pe perete, imi vine o idee extra white stralucitoare. sa dau cu apa sa il curat. si dau cu presiune, nu mai baraie o perioada, opresc, astept cateva secunde, incepe din nou. si ma gandeam ca poate nu ar fi bine sa continuu sa ud, ca probabil era curent electric pe acolo, si poate zburam si eu in aer odata cu sigurantele. dar era mai palpitant sa astept sa se intample ceva in timp ce continuam sa ud. dar nu s-a intamplat nimic interesant, in afara de faptul ca am descoperit functii noi la dusul meu, si am curatat ventilatorul care continua sa huruie, si nu a sarit nimic in aer.
si acum mi s-a facut somn.
pe maine!

(sa speram cu mai multa inspiratie :D)

dam mingea mai departe la animalele din fauna blogosferica!

words for you, truths for me

yea, 2009 has come. today i have realized that in 4 months I'm gonna be 24...and that's a pretty big number.but it started somehow optimistic. and is only February. or almost...can't really decide.
i used to have the feeling that this year is crawling, the days are sooo long and they pass so hard. but it seems that one month has already passed. maybe is just in my imagination.

i sometimes feel the need to write.

and there's a small part of my hidden wishes for the new year.

i would like to have a baby.
i would love to go to Brazil.
i would like to be more intelligent.
i would like to be more consistent.
i would like to love more sincerely the people who deserve it.
i would like to have straight hair.
i would like to decide (anything) faster.
i would like to help my sisters more than i am right now.
i would like to have parents.
i would like to be less selfish.
i would like to learn Portuguese.
i would love to meet leo and broscuta.
i would like to be less superficial.
i would like to learn how to swim.
i would like to be less impulsive.
i would like to know to appreciate the good things in my life.
i would love to smile more often.
i would love to bring happiness to people.
i would like to have the courage and determination to do what i want.
i would like to know what i want.
i would like to say "sorry" only when i really mean it.
i would like to be less aggressive and self-absorbed.

hhmm...


i would love to know for sure who i really am.

and i have a feeling that this is all up to me...my own hero and world savior.

true.

post edit:
the baby is not a real baby, just the concept. in fact, i don't wantthe baby, i want what it comes with the baby. hm...i understand me, but, again, i really don't intend to get pregnant. noooo fucking way!! :)))

hold on, little tomato!

hang on to the vine,
stay on, soon you'll be divine!



pink martini, my new obsession :)

in a good mood day

i've discovered Emiliana Torinni, and this song is just GREAT!!!

enjoy it!

jur

ca sunt cea mai imbecila persoana pe care am cunoscut-o.