words for you, truths for me

yea, 2009 has come. today i have realized that in 4 months I'm gonna be 24...and that's a pretty big number.but it started somehow optimistic. and is only February. or almost...can't really decide.
i used to have the feeling that this year is crawling, the days are sooo long and they pass so hard. but it seems that one month has already passed. maybe is just in my imagination.

i sometimes feel the need to write.

and there's a small part of my hidden wishes for the new year.

i would like to have a baby.
i would love to go to Brazil.
i would like to be more intelligent.
i would like to be more consistent.
i would like to love more sincerely the people who deserve it.
i would like to have straight hair.
i would like to decide (anything) faster.
i would like to help my sisters more than i am right now.
i would like to have parents.
i would like to be less selfish.
i would like to learn Portuguese.
i would love to meet leo and broscuta.
i would like to be less superficial.
i would like to learn how to swim.
i would like to be less impulsive.
i would like to know to appreciate the good things in my life.
i would love to smile more often.
i would love to bring happiness to people.
i would like to have the courage and determination to do what i want.
i would like to know what i want.
i would like to say "sorry" only when i really mean it.
i would like to be less aggressive and self-absorbed.

hhmm...


i would love to know for sure who i really am.

and i have a feeling that this is all up to me...my own hero and world savior.

true.

post edit:
the baby is not a real baby, just the concept. in fact, i don't wantthe baby, i want what it comes with the baby. hm...i understand me, but, again, i really don't intend to get pregnant. noooo fucking way!! :)))